Not Alone This Season

There are moments in life when words fail, and yet the presence of others speaks louder than any sentence ever could.

The pain we went through over the past few days may not have been any less, whether we have friends or not—but it felt easier to bear knowing there are people around who care and love us. Especially since all our families are in the Philippines, having friends nearby made their support even more meaningful.

We were overwhelmed by gifts, flowers, and countless visits. Even friends who didn’t yet know about our pregnancy came by, simply because they knew I was unwell and wanted to support me.

From top to bottom: Flowers from Jackie's garden; Roses from Sandra's backyard; Picnic bag and snacks from Kaela; Flowers from Downer; Cupcakes, Cookies, Candies from Trev, Jackie, and Jenna; 3-Burner Grill with Smoker and fancy glasses (Christmas gift) from Trev

There were times I thought—what a cruel way to experience the holidays. And yet, I was grateful for the pause. I had the space to process and to grieve without pretending to be okay. I didn’t have to put on a smile, go to work, or be my old, happy self. I could just be.

Celebrating our first Christmas Eve at our new home

Aftermath of Christmas Lunch with my good friend Sandra and her husband Ross

Watched the most awaited Stranger Things Season 5
John gifting me a fan shirt for Christmas

Husband doing a lot of home improvements: fixing new lights, lawn mowing, cutting the bushes

Brunch at L'Arte Cafe after attending church

New Year's Eve at home, watching the lakefront fireworks in town at 9:30 and midnight

The pain doesn’t vanish overnight, and healing is slow. But even in loss, I am deeply grateful—for love, for kindness, and for friends who remind me that in the hardest moments, I am not alone.

No Rhyme, Just Reason is a Taupō, New Zealand–based blog by Ariane about books, good food, long walks, and unapologetic naps.